got my 3rd and last gardasil shot! hallelujah!!! :)

Got my first gardasil shot! wasn’t too bad…or at least not yet haha :)

getting my first gardasil vaccine tomorrow. waaaa :( haha

put it off until at least august, if not indefinitely haha :) no shot for me!

ughhh fuck. I can’t decide again. I thought I had made up my mind and now I feel like I should get the vaccine. the risk is like 1/100,000 so I feel stupid.

After days of deliberation, I decided against getting the gardasil vaccine. 

I know I keep ranting about this but I still can’t make up my mind about the gardasil vaccine.

I have to get it tomorrow if I’m going to at all because I’m flying on Sunday to Turkey and I want to get it from my actual doctor, plus this way the rest of the dates line up.

I’m almost 19 and I’ve already had sex, so I’ve already been exposed to HPV, but I’m pretty safe as in I’ve used condoms during sex, but I have done oral sex without one so I don’t know :/

Honestly, I know that there have only been a couple deaths and they’re not even definitely linked and neither are the cases of paralysis or neurodamage etc. But they still scare me, and what if they’re real? 

And yes it would be great to get the shot and not be one of those victims, but what if I am, ya know? AND it’s 3 shots! I won’t even be fully at ease if I’m okay after the first. ughhh. 

I’m not someone who sleeps around but I do have sex enough that it is quite possible that I will get HPV, but they say 90% of HPV goes away on it’s own. So I can’t decide where I’m willing to take the risk. And I have about 12hrs to decide…

What do I do?

I’m freaking out about this vaccine. So many deaths/paralysations, bad side effects etc. Thoughts?